I was considering all the Christmas celebrations i have witnessed in my life and i ended up asking which was the best Christmas of my life today? I guess it was when I was much younger, snow man, father Christmas in our warm school hall - it was beautiful, the ultimate man in red, then we came to Nigeria- hmmm, if I can remember well, my first Christmas i experienced harmattan, no light, no water, then i remember my school then at jibowu, st john the only girls school that took me on a boy, the only boy in a girls school, then i think i can remember my 3rd Christmas, my father had joined these white garment wearing church introduce to him by his younger brother, it was quite similar to the church we attended in the UK in those years Ayo Ni O, birmingham, but what happened, cele doctrine spoilt my ideal Christmas fun from then, i spent it running around in church with white garment, and it went on, from then on, i remember the spiral fire works, brought by brother ojo an uncle of mine and all these small knockouts,red coloured joint together with cadburys sweets - then we moved to ikeja, i cant remember if we had move to ikeja before i left for boarding school or we were still at ojota, i remember this i had one of the biggest injuries, but i hid it because i just had to go to school, i remember I had to leave for boarding school fgc wukari - well i would come back to this period, i remember this Christmas slightly , i am not sure if it was my first term or 3rd term, but i can remember vividly on one of the occassions, we couldn't come by flight bcoz the weather was bad, Nigerian airways cancelled all flights from Makurdi - we had to return to school and then the school organized an ekene dilli chukwu bus that took us from wukari thru Benue, Niger bridge thru the east all the way to asaba and then Lagos we got to Lagos in the night wee hours of the morning, and stopped at ojuelegba-parents came to pick my friends up, I couldn't , get thru to my parents, so I waited and waited the school finally organized to get me home, i can't remember how I got to ikeja, thou I remember now us moving our things to ikeja from ojota, and a senior of mine bringing things from home to me in school from my parents, but before that i remember when we were moving to ikeja from ojota, we drinking all the beer my mum sold as kids and feeling cool with ourselves, we were practically pouring the stuff on the road as we were moving, thinking about it, was it ojota we went to first or ikeja? well, I just know I walked into our compound at ikeja holding my jeans shorts, with my left hand, no belt all had been stolen, in school- looking lean and obviously taller, since I can't remember the in between, stuff, I can remember the fireworks, knockout, banger as we called it "fever", then as time passed i decided to walk around my environment, i remembered i went to chrisland nursery and primary school and i had classmates within the axis i guess my purpose of taking solo walks, was to see if by chance i could run into 1 or 2 of them, and i did, i met iffidon (homo then) more so i was walking around to know my environment, was quite different thou, i honestly dont know why, but i remember, i was bullied by neighbor's on my street then, because i was termed an ursper- a foreigner to the natural order or maybe they just didnt like me bcoz I didn't talk much, i didn't have much to wear, could my parents afford it after paying so much for my school fees, I remember insisting I don't want to go back to FGC for my JSS 2, the bullying was much the hardship much the hunger much, less i forget i spent my 2nd term school fees crazy I just didn't want to go back, that was my greatest mistake I would have been better off if I had returned back, thinking it was cool we had a neighbour so i started making friends, my neighbour Linda, I fell for her cousin Patricia - I always wanted her around me, I went to their house at any opportunity, I met her brothers, they told me about airport hotel and the swimming pool and how they use to get it, a small part of the fence, we formed an alliance a friendship, I was infatuated by her, I remember buying the first big knockout in September, and my cousin shouting ogi baba is sold here only for him to fall inside the gutter - laughing about this now, i also remember the year they said it would make the loudest noise,(knockouts), so I tried to make myself happy afterwards but none of these Christmas was ever like that Christmas in lee bank, i still remembered the snow man real fire works evening and the lights, I remember visiting father Christmas grothoe in Lee bank nursery and primary school, well we were in nigeria so, that years adverts were hot on television it was either NTA or Ltv father Christmas is coming, I remember visiting father Christmas at Ltv channel 8 after my uncle cajoled my father to allow me andy youmger brother go there, wow, we couldn't play all the games, bcoz we had to manage the money given to us, by selecting the most pertinent games and a must see of father Christmas, we selected a few, saw father Christmas collected his gift, a nylon bags that contained VIP drinks, pencil, eraser, ruler, exercise book, sweets and a rubber ball, all tiring but not the best* in comparison - have I really enjoyed Christmas till this stage in all honesty? thinking about it NO! at least one, hmmmm -none! that I can remember - sometimes I had to fight to get Christmas clothes I was told I didn't need it, i was more matured or was it an opportunity to not just buy for me? - my experiences continued, I felt I was not wanted, self esteem eroded seriously but what could I do, I was in ss1 then had done my JSS 3 exams Patricia had left they had moved to ipodo axis she only came around once in a while - I was left with Linda she introduced me to Veronica I like her but not like Patricia then to ifako ijaiye knockouts I was almost bamboozled by a girl Aina, she was black as in, when she was coming in the night you would only see her eyes, she was that girl in the neighbourhood you would tag a wild girl and was always in the face of our neighbour then, Peter these were the first set of men to be involved in fraud they duped people in nigeria and outside nigeria, they made fraud look like a legit job, then rode fanciful cars acura legend, pajero jeeps mercedes benz concorde as of that time, did i enjoy Christmas then no, it was mins , she took an offense at me, and at all opportunity tried to oppress me. I had to repeat ss1 for going to play table tennis instead of reading my fault my mates went ahead, I was left behind very terrible Christmas at ifako Christmas changed to church Christmas at all opportunity we spent 7 days prior in church and 7 subsequent days after in church so in total 21days never enjoyed it at all, i fantasized about eleko beach the shows that happened there, and it continued for years on. i guess i ould consider the 1997 the next best that of 1996 was marred in the just concluded aluta in ilaro and i didnt know what to expect on resumption. come to think of it what made the Christmas tick i think it was the loving environment more then the food, and the actual things that happened as i write this it is dovetailing into the concept of my life - well what can i do? i would think of other Christmas celebration and see if, i can remember all the events.
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